No Words..Actions Speak

Never Meant Harm The Soul You Own,
I'm Always Here You Will Never Be Alone...

I Just Tried To Make You Happy When Times Was Ruff,
Seems Now We Not As Close, We Just Yell and Cuss....

At First Both Of Us Was Just Having Fun and Games,
I Hurt You and I Know You Don't Look At Me The Same...

You Have To Admit That Both Of Us Got Caught Up In This Process,
But While Playing Ive Come To Care and Love You I Confess...

Look At As Now and The Way We Use To Be,
Are Friendship Was To Strong, It Was Always "Big Head" and "B"...

But Like Alicia Keys Said "Ive Made My Own Hard Bed",
All This Drama, Hurt and Pain Look Where It Has Lead...

I Understand I Hurt You but I Ain't Have Fun Doing It,
But I'm Sure Your Love and Trust You Just Had To Quite...

When I'm With You I Enjoy Every Moment Thats Been Spent,
You Made Me Feel Like A Super Hero and I Ain't Had To Hide It Like Clark Kent....

Well Right Now I'm On Something

and

I'm Glad I Am Because I Was Finally Able To Express Some Type Of Feeling In Me......

IDK MAYBE WAT I WROTE WAS DUMB BUT IDK......

---my bestfriend wrote this to me, and I remember the day I saw this I broke down. Sometimes it makes me think about the GOOD TIMES we had....but I guess its all MEMORIES now

JAN 5.

You have many talents, and you are great at sharing those talents with others.
Most people would be jealous of your clever intellect, but you're just too likeable to elicit jealousy.
Progressive and original, you're usually thinking up cutting edge ideas.
Quick witted and fast thinking, you have difficulty finding new challenges.

Your strength: Your superhuman brainpower

Your weakness: Your susceptibility to boredom

Your power color: Tangerine

Your power symbol: Ace

Your power month: May

Next LIFEtiME

What can I say about the concert on Tuesday except OWWWWW!!!! I freaking love Maxwell and Common but Chrisette Michele...she is the SHIT!!!! No doubt, that trio is the definition of REAL Rhythm and Blues! Leading up to this day, I was too excited and anxious, maybe for the simple fact that I haven't been to a concert since I was a senior in high school which was the Destiny Child Farewell Tour or something....idk! But lord really made a GORGEOUS man out of Maxwell...sheeesh! I was just feeling the environment, from beginning to end. The money spent on the concert was worth every penny, even though my vehicle was towed when I got out the concert. I understand that when I am in church and its TIME for me to pay my tithes....WITHOUT thinking twice they need to be paid. The lord showed me that if I don't give him what he has given to me, he will take even more.

Pause::...

So I've been very "iffy" about some of the decisions I need to make in my life. Kind of standing in a frozen position with really no clue where to go next. Maybe I should turn slightly or maybe I shouldn't. I need to pray for guidance....lord I'm lost

Israel & New Breed - Go Back Lyrics

You are drawing me into Your presence
To the beauty of Your Holiness
You are calling me to come and worship
And my answer to Your call is 'Yes'

I'm coming closer, closer to the flame
And I can hear Your voice as clear
As the first day, You say

Go back to your first love
Go back to your first love
Go back, return
And let the fires burn again

Go back to your first love
Go back to your first love
Go back, return
And let the fires burn again

I'm reminded of the days of passion
When my worship flowed so unrestrained, remember
Like the prodigal I've learned my lesson, yeah
And I never want to be the same

I'm coming closer, closer to the flame
And I can hear Your voice as clear
As the first day, You say

Go back to your first love
Go back to your first love
Go back, return
And let the fires burn again

Go back to your first love
Go back to your first love
Go back, return
And let the fires burn again

Go back, return
Go back to your first love
Go back to your first love
Go back, return
And let the fires burn again

Go back to your first love
Go back to your first love
Go back, return
And let the fires burn again

Go back, go back, go back
Go back, go back, go back
Turn around, return
And let the fires burn again

Go, how did you get here
Turn around you're gonna sound all over again
Go back return
And let the fires burn again, again, again

People are trippin' man
People need Jesus, Tommy
Let's get, let's bring Jesus to 'em

Transforming w/ TiME

In due season everything will unfold itself. Last night I was able to have a conversation with a person who I consider my bestfriend. I know that he was never suppose to be ejected out of my life, but when my life becomes primarily centered around him...then somethings must change. My love was so deep and strong that I knew that changes need to happen not on the outside but within myself. The only person who is able to make these changes is the one who I place 100% plus of my trust into. Just given the opportunity to even have a mutual relationship with him, brings satisfaction to my heart. All I know is that time will reveal itself....this disconnected time period was needed not only for me, but also for him. He began to understand that you should never depend on any human....because when they disppoint you, there is no need to look around for somebody else. So now...where am I suppose to go. Shit idk really but I'm living in a new LIFETIME
Maxwell- Lifetime

I was reborn when I was broken
I wouldn't believe, I wouldn't believe, no
been thru a storm, no use in hoping
that you would come rescue me
somehow your love set me free

And I, I can let my life pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime
work it on out this time
I can let it all pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime lifetime

There was a time when love wasn't chosen
now I'm just open for more
now I'm just reaching out for something better
that I had before, girl
there ain't a bottom line in your world

Ooh and I, I can let my life pass me by
or I can get down and try
work it all out this lifetime
work it on out this time

I can let it all pass me by
or I can just try and try
I can move to the light
oh if I take it one day at a time (oh I)
oh spread my love out and fly
oh I (I can move to the light)
ooh I can just make you understand
that love is not a fairytale in a melody
if you want it you can have it girl
maybe you will see maybe you will see (ooh ooh)
ooh oh oh wo oh
lifetime lifetime

repeat chorus
(adlib til end)

Photographed Kendra Harris
http://keenphotography.carbonmade.com/

Anticipation or Patience

One lady once told me that sometime you need to spoil yourself every now and then. And with this she said that as a young lady, we love lingerie but we never treat ourselves to the best kind. Such as you should be able to walk into Victoria's Secret and buy yourself a nice bra and pantie set without any inclusion to have sex. "Its something about a matching bra and pantie set from Victoria's Secret, that makes you happy" Regardless of the type of undergarments that I wear, I should ALWAYS be happy no matter the circumstance. As I am not only growing older in age, I am also starting to evolve into a different stage in life. Over the past weekend me and my daddy sat down and discussed my options after graduation.....was this conversation actually occurring. It feels like just yesterday I was a freshman enrolling in the University of Houston....and now I am less than 18hrs of graduating WOW!! My life feels like its at a peddle stool and honestly I am lost. I know the career path that I want to lean towards and where I want to live, but what IF EVERYTHING CHANGES....I'll look completly lost. At this point all I do is keep going on the ride, but one thing I can say is that this rollercoaster is no longer going through REPEPTIONS...better yet looking at a ne course. The name of the course is disclosed..but hell I'm riding and ENJOYING EVERY BIT

Goodynight


Photographed by Kendra Harris
http://keenphotography.carbonmade.com/

Blame It On Me

Ha, could there really be somebody to blame? If your not able to look into the mirror and blame the reflection that you're looking at, maybe you have some inner issues within yourself. All that I can say is that I AM a work iN ProgREES!

chrisette michele-

Sometimes you can work it out
Sometimes you can't
Sometimes you're forced to watch everything fall apart it's out of your hands
Sometimes leaving is easy
Sometimes it ain't
Sometimes it hurts to know the loving you had was slowly fading away

(chorus)
You can say whatever you like
As long as we just say goodbye
Blame it on me
Say it's my fault
Say that I left you outside in the cold with a broken heart
I really don't care
I ain't crying no more
Say I'm a liar a cheater
Say anything that you want
As long as it's over

I ain't a quitter
I just ain't the type
I tried to see you through
I tried to make it to the finishing line
Oooh you thought it was meant to be yeah
I admit so did I
Every once in a while you think you figured it out
Sometimes you're not right

(chorus)

Yes I love you but I really got to lose you
Freedom is where I want to be
Yes I'll probably always love you
But I'm moving
I got to do this for me

(chorus 2x)