Chosen For A Reason

“I asked God for strength that I might achieve. I was made weak that I might learn humbly to obey. I asked for health that I might do greater things. I was given infirmity that I might do better things. I asked for riches that I might be happy. I was given poverty that I might be wise. I asked for power that I might have the praise of men. I was given weakness that I might feel the need of God. I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. I was given life that I might enjoy all things. I got nothing that I asked for, but everything I hoped for. Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered. I am, among all men, most richly blessed.”

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I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God, than to dwell in the tents of wickedness

My granny is resting peacefully in the arms of her father and there is no other place she rather be.
Sunset 9-28-08

I love you granny

III. A Place To Call Home
Verse 1 reads How amiable, how peaceful, how friendly are thy tabernacles, or in today’s term, I feel at home, I’m comfortable here with you Lord.

Serenity = Peace

In for me to be truly happy, I must learn to LOVE me all over again. Life is full of mistakes, the best part about them is that you LEARN from the previous in order to LIVE your life for the next.

God grant me the serenity

To accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

Meditation

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The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

Mindful of Prospering

Chorus) No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work God will do what He say He would do He will stand by His word And He will come through God will do what He say He would do He will stand by His word And He will come through (Chorus) No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work God will do what He said He would do He’s not a man that He should lie He will come through God will do what He said He would do He will stand by His word He will come through (Bridge) Oh I won’t be afraid of the arrows by day From the hand of my enemy I can stand my ground with the Lord on my side For the snares they have set will not succeed (Chorus) No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work For I Know God Will do(said he would do it) What he said he would do(said he would do it) He will stand by his word(stand by his word), he will come through God will do what(said he would do it) he said he he's gonna do(said he would do it) stand by his word(stand by his word) NO NO NO WAY! (Chorus) No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work No weapon formed against me shall prosper, it won’t work It won't work Dont be afriad of the arrows or the snares that... if you beielve say you OOOO There just aint one(there just aint one) There just aint one(there just aint one) No Weapon

Bestfriend

A-Hello, how are you
B-I'm good and you
A-I'm doing fine, just thought about you and decided to call and see how you were doing, since I was at your house last weekend. I know that I told you I need space to grow, but I was just calling to see how everything was going.
B-Its good.
A-Are you busy
B-I'm about to get something to eat, but I'm not
A-Ok well I'll talk to you later then
B-Yeah


Maybe I was not suppose to contact you, but I wanted to. Whatever the future holds, just know that I do love you, but we're walking down 2 separate paths.

Iris
(The Goo Goo Dolls)

Verse 1

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am

Verse 3

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am
Chorus I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others"

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Show Up && Show Out

--If you would allow him to take over your growing process, the end is beautiful

New beginnings, new season, new ME! Over the past year I have transformed into a completely different person. Who would've known that I would be where I am today. Self-consciously I doubted myself, because I never felt that I would accomplish anything in my life. Whether it dealt with my education or employment to relationships and now my own personal growth. I get excited just glimpsing on the progress that I have made along with the many blessings that have come my way within these past 12 months. Sometimes I feel the need to distance myself from everybody that is around me, solely for the reason that I need to grow, but this is a solo project. I guess this season that is occurring right now is for my to "Find My Identity". Last night at bible study, I realized that maybe I have created a identity from experiences and not from the one person who I should have. Taking out the time to set and list my desires along with any friction that has influenced me into becoming the young woman that I am today. There is still work in progress with finding my identity, but I do know that I have qualities I believe stand out and will benefit others down the line. I must ALWAYS remain HUMBLE. One of my favorite quotes is:: Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy.::


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The Sound of Truth

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http://keenphotography.carbonmade.com/

A collaborative poem by Kendra Harris. Jasmine Umenyi. Kori Harver! =)

Catch your tears in the ribbons of my heart.
Each tear holding a beat the ribbon of my heart couldn't speak.
Muted by your ribbons presence, captured by your tears embrace
As they seep deep within my skin
The secretion begins to race and I exhale. I breath out the pain that once restrained my joy.
The joy that I know no one can steal
Because it is instilled so deep within my being it overrides the pain of these worldly things
And I was taught joy was not of this world...so I began to redeem myself from the iniquities...the shame...the quilt.
The iniquities...the shame...the quilt. Built up and bandaged tight, by the persona I want the ribbons to believe.
Believe the complex truths within my heart
Because only my heart can solve the riddles behind these complex truths.
In my heart is you.

A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ

That a man should have to seek Him first to find her

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin''

I'm whispering 'I was lost,

Now I'm found and forgiven.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak and

need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed and

need God to clean my mess

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible but,

God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain...

I have my share of heartaches,

so I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

Who received God's good grace, somehow! "

— Maya Angelou

Opening Up

I pray to god that he allows me to open up my heart, for I know what I did not know before. Music is my comfort zone that I escape to in order to refresh my mind. Why must I constantly renew my mind. This process always me to become stronger in the direction that I am heading down. But now I am turning my heart over to god, and allowing my heart to escape into his destiny. For this is a new season, and I will begin with a smile, because I have so much love to give.

"What Is Love"- Vivian Green

Maybe I am foolishly in love with
Someone that is
Not exactly on the same page, that I am on
Well all my friends keep telling me stop
Walking round so blindly
But when he calls theyre not around
To ever remind me

[hook:]

Maybe this isnt love, but if it isnt love then really what is love
Maybe I dont need to know whats really love
Cause when hes aournd hes got me feeling some kinda way

[verse 2:]

I guess I kind of notioce he dont always act so kindly
But that doesnt stop my hunger, hunger for his heart
Why should I listen to thoes, who think that I should move on
Maybe what they see as drama, I see more as art

[hook]

[bridge:]

Cant seem to get past how he makes me feel
May not be love but it feels so real
Cant go with what they say must follow my heart
But now is that even being to to me
Maybe Im happy, truly content
Maybe this is as good as it gets
Do I have faith in my confidence
Or an I just thinking all hopelessly

[hook]

Not Looking Back

So was this the outcome that you expected at the end of the day. Are you FIGHTING from the truth or are you actually facing the truth? As India Arie stated "The time is right. I'm gonna pack my bags.And take that journey down the road" I still sometimes think to myself was this the correct decision to make. One person stated that the heart grows stronger when separated. But maybe my heart is not growing anymore in that direction. Maybe I'm growing stronger in a BEAUTIFUL AWAKENING. I must constantly reassure myself that this man named God has always been with me throughout my ordeals. He placed me in each transaction and allowed me to fight the battle. I am starting to realized that my life is going in a new direction. Where exactly is this taking me, I am yet to find out. Nor do I know who is going to stay along with me on my exploration. But I do know that one man has always been there despite all the non-sense, and apologizes I have committed. I love the scripture of PROVERBS 3:5-6 "for I will TRUST in him and not lean on my own understanding" I understand completelty that I am nowhere near perfect, but I do know that there are BLESSINGS with my name on them. And if I keep LOOKING BACK I will never receive any. New moments, also a time for me to "walk into a NEW season". So maybe this is my transformation or maybe a time to walk forward and stop repeating the past. I know where I want to go in life, but sometimes my plans are not always the right plan. He may find the need for me to drift off somewhere else, but whereever I end up, I know that I have come a long way. I have so much love for me, each and everyday. Keep on pushing for success and no plans of turning around....