Thank you for that talk in particular. After I got off the phone with you I just sat down and praised God. It was one of those moments. I know there is a reason why I'm at this point in my life. I've never doubted what God has instore for me but sometimes I doubt myself. I guess I'm so ambitious for success in my life that it scares me sometimes. Crazy part is, why am I worrying about something that is already in the making but I'm too caught up in the now moment I cant even realize how my life is being affected. Its already been noted deep in my brain that He has major plans for me and thats why I'm working on my "demands, always wanting everything right now" but I comprehend that you cannot get anywhere without putting forth effort. I was given certain skills for a reason and who knows where its going to take me but I'm really learning to live for day and not worry about tomorrow. Btwn my pride and self-doubt these two will kill me and thats where I begin to stress myself and freak out. Its funny because I always read old sayings how you are your worst enemy......but I dont want that for myself. This has been on my heart for a little while and my biggest fear was to speak up and ask for advice. The fear of weakness wouldnt allow me to openly express myself to you, but I didnt care anymore. I have a great life...yes I'm blessed beyond measure so why am I worrying about nonsense. It meant alot to me thank you, love you goodnight
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